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Sunday, July 27, 2003

Appreciation

Company and attention. What are they? Humans want company and attention because they feel appreciated. When someone accompanies and pays attention to you, you feel your presence is appreciated. You won't feel like you're not there though physically you are. You feel important, the way you want it, not necessary very very important. That's why frens pay attention to one another, to the details, cause they want to show each other that they appreciate one another.

Relationship. What is it? Through relationship, one finds another who appreciates him or her (hoh). Appreciates to the detail, more than friends do. Sometimes, friends just cannot appreciate every tiny winy part of you, cause friends have their own life. In a relationship, your partner commits to you and makes a point to appreciate every part of you. That's basically what everyone wants out of a relationship -- appreciation by the partner.

Why would you have feelings for someone? Because you appreciate hoh presence, character, or simply physic. And why would you want that person to have feelings for you too? Because you appreciate hoh, and you want it to be appreciated.

Appreciation. What is this? It is acceptance and acknowledgement. You do something, he or she (hos) doesn't pretend hos didn't see. Even if hos dislike the idea, hos will say,"Thanks for your effort." If hos likes it, he'll say, "Thank you" instead of waiting for it to repeat the next time. Knowing that people acknowledge your actions makes you realise its good or bad, and you feel good. At least you know someone understands to a certain degree and you are not totally alone.

And how does appreciation works? It works on the basis that humans are not born solitary. Humans are fearful of loneliness. It is inborn in us, carried in our genes. Though it makes emotions sound too biological, but be aware it's the biological factor which arouses emotions.

The world goes round the world appreciation. In a kinship, in a friendship, in a relationship, everyone seeks appreciation. So if you really appreciate hoh presence, go ahead acknowledge your acceptance of hoh thoughts and actions.

hm.... m i making sense... hope i m.... have problem putting ideas into words.

guess wad pple?? yesterday cip go CREATIVE to move chairs.... free labour again!! haha hilarious nite for me
grace was so happy carrying her bunches of flower home... then lost her hp on taxi... take one lose one... poor grace!!
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later go n source for presents... for so many pple.... no $$$$$$$$$$ liao lah..... aargh... but nvm for the sake of them i'll be happy =) must learn to save.... everyday $2.... maybe need to increase savings.... hmm.....
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good weekend... friday caught up with 4hao n zn n rbin, sat caught up with fer km yw kb ky zj.... n today gonna spend some time alone thinking thru things... things have been like flyin past without really thinking thru properly lor... decisions are made in the nick of time without really going thru feelings...
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hmm glad to c fer in his usual crap n unbeatable joking mood.... haha keep it up man fer!! there's ups n downs in life... just a matter of time to climb up the depression of life... yap stay cheerful but let us noe when u feel down yah??? a smile for u --> =)


Thursday, July 24, 2003

Tell Her About It

Listen boy
Don't want to see you let a good thing Slip away
You know I don't like watching
Anybody make the same mistakes I made

She's a real nice girl
And she's always there for you
But a nice girl wouldn't tell you what you should do

Listen boy
I'm sure that you think you got it all
Under control
You don't want somebody telling you
The way to stay in someone's soul
You're a big boy now
You'll never let her go
But that's just the kind of thing
She ought to know

Tell her about it
Tell her everything you feel
Give her every reason to accept
That you're for real

Tell her about it
Tell her all your crazy dreams
Let her know you need her
Let her know how much she means

Listen boy
It's not automatically a certain guarantee
To insure yourself
You've got to provide communication constantly
When you love someone
You're always insecure
And there's only one good way
To reassure

Tell her about it
Let her know how much you care
When she can't be with you
Tell her you wish you were there

Tell her about it
Every day before you leave
Pay her some attention
Give her something to believe
Cause now and then
She'll get to worrying
Just because you haven't spoken
For so long
Though you may not have done anything
Will that be a consolation when she's gone

Listen boy
It's good information from a man
Who's made mistakes
Just a word or two that she gets from you
Could be the difference that it makes
She's a trusting soul
She's put her trust in you
But a girl like that won't tell you
What you should do

Tell her about it
Tell her everything you feel
Give her every reason
To accept that you're for real

Tell her about it
Tell her all your crazy dreams
Let her know you need her
Let her know how much she means

Tell her about it
Tell her how you feel right now
Tell her about it
The girl don't want to wait too long
You got to tell her about it
Tell her now and you won't go wrong

You got to tell her about it
Before it gets too late
You got to tell her about it
You know the girl don't want
To wait--you got to
Tell her about it
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no communication, no exchange of feelings n tots, no improvement of relationship
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everyone get hurts now and then.... just like chicken pox... u're born with it.... but this time u dun call it immune, u call it numb... it's literature, but it means the same... tt's y u c old pple always very cool n calm, cos they noe wad's gonna happen n they noe how they're gonna feel... well we're growing, we're experiencing, we're feeling and we're anticipating, tt's y we fail on our way, we feel the pain in life, the tear in the heart, the tears in the eyes. but it's ok, everyone feels it, just a matter of timing, a matter of degree. it just shows we're normal

now i'm feeling normal.... kerm noes y
i hope that hopes are not just hope but more than hopes
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Sunday, July 20, 2003


double duaism.....
--> ying long sounded so enthu abt watching T3, then he last min got something crop up... made me feel so excited abt saturday nite for 1 week... end up in FUNTASIA where i spent $2 to win 2 packets of tissue.... with Pooh bear n gang smiling at me in the front cover somemore!!! nandri....
--> yi bing wanted go buy present for steph, but last min got family gathering.... made me feel so glad dun have to stay at home n rot with the worksheets... end up half rotted in the house... merci...
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falling sick on a sunday where it's the last chance to finsih work... wow it's the best thing u can get u noe!! can't be happier
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this is not a good week.... din finish lots of work, din have energy to run today...worse still din catch up with old frens, din mingle with new frens, basically nothing done... physically unsatisfied, academically inadequate, emotionally unattended... feel so alone n failure... n disappointed of cos...
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7 weeks to promos.... arr mee taa baa haa lee loo yaa..... orh ni tor hoot jia cai bai bood
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wad if all efforts go to waste?? i really wonder.... all the heart shattering, the social evasion, the tears, the wanna scold "ccb knn nnh tmd"... it's just another game... just another luck n fate thing... Fate n lUCK... check it out... no wonder

who's not afraid of being hurt?
definitely not me... hope won't get hurt again
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Wednesday, July 16, 2003

TRACK & FIELD FINALS

the most important event of the tchs calender... we did win by points, but this time not by spirit. a bad way to instil unity into the sec 1 and 2 who has never been to this event before... they dunno wad is called the HUAZHONG SPIRIT with the knowledge that we're goin to win anyway... complacency and ignorance... this time not only 1 but 2 levels together... if they're not goin to understand the feeling of being THE CHINESE HIGH SCHOOL from the most significant event i doubt they will from others... somemore the incalcation of Hwa Chong College... i guess the HUAZHONG SPIRIT is gonna be history
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i'm troubled... again... not by the performance of the track n field... but by events which happened which made me rethink certain things abt myself n life...
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pessimism persist when one is tired n disappointed... when u climb high n u fall heavily... when u get used to things n it doesn't excite u anymore...
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Sunday, July 13, 2003

suddenly i've got this dun wanna do anything feeling in me... it's the feeling of the weather is good the time is sufficient but the mood is not there... yucks... tt's y i'm here... should be studying... but slept just now slack a bit n haven started studyin... yucks this feeling disturbs the soul... yucks! looking at photos doesn't help, eating doesnt' help (actually nothing to eat), going online doesn't help (cos there's no one online). dunno wad i wan leh... wasting my precious time in a boring room... i think it's the imbalance of not goin out today... shit... means i must everyday go out a bit then can study more... nonsense rite???? wart der hal....
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10 more weeks to block test... yucks... even more yucky
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seems like i can only took to myself now... will someone just appear??????

ok let me c, wad is there to look forward to... hm.... track n field meet ok! yes yes... pple pls remember to bring ur yellow tee n khaki pants so tt we can coordinate to wear then we can go n make a fool out of ourselves...

maf is next ok... must plan fun fun activities... oh i'm involved in planning on behalf of zwxh... any ideas to give??

oh n national day... pple wanna go someone house n criticise n laugh at the parade??? or all busy heavying??

i think i look forward to end of year hols the most... endure!!! july august september october NOVEMBER!! 5 more months

Saturday, July 12, 2003

friday rox the most cos it's the time where u can let things that come gushing at u settle down at ur feet and start arranging them properly in ur mind. also time for u to meet up with ur frens without worry abt doin work to hand up tmr. yes!
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18 turned up for ord including clt (salute to the clt, wah so big)... not bad lah, though it's the usual few again. this time got kb, nic, ber, not bad lor considering they once in a while join us only... actually was expecting more pple to come down...but seems like all turned off liao.... ok lor should be contented liao
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oh.... PW rox rite everyone? simply cannot live without it, it relieves our stress n bring us much enjoyment n entertainment in this time of our life where we have to cope with 4 totally deep subjects. With PW, a lot of precious time is saved and energy conserved. Without PW, life is such a bore, everyday u'll have nothing much better to do. So PW, love it! It adds colours to our mandane and empty lives!

Thursday, July 10, 2003

3rd day of sch... n i'm beginning to feel the terrible feeling of depression slowly drifting to engulf me. no no no! shdn't let it take control. i think it's becos of tiredness... when u feel tired, the mind uncontrollably makes u feel terrible... da me! my make my mind more active...


new formula for depression

Depression = (D x things to do) / time + disappointment , where D = the depression constant

aha... do too much physics liao... everything seems to be related... the next albert in the making...evil!!


SOD (Source Of Depression) seems to come from frens... some frens whom i wonder whether it would have better not to known in the 1st place... as u grow up u'll realise life gets complicated... this is horrible.... i'm getting takut (scared)

haha... u all must be thinking how abt my results... haha u all noe lah such shit things i dun reallly put it to heart one... anyway the results i'm getting r rather hilarious... wart der hal kind of results is tt?
macks 42/84
fisiks 44/120...... woooohoooo
thanx ah 4 for appearing in my results 4 times.... 4 somemore wart der hal... nandri

how abt u all pple? nvm find out from u all tmr... km dun sound happy from his blog!! neither is zj
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tmr is ORD... hope to c everyone again... if this time a lot of pple turn up... guys i tell u the juniors will follow suit n it'll be good... we r the trend setters again!

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Here, There and Everywhere

To lead a better life I need my home to be here...

Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with the wave of her hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there

There, running my hands through her hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speking but she doesn't know he's there

I want her everywhere
and if she's beside me I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

I want her everywhere
and if she's beside me I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

To be there and everywhere
Here, there and everywhere

Tuesday, July 08, 2003

life have been a great journey so far... learning to be positive abt life. it's great to recover from depression. hai... eh no shldn't sigh... should yes! ok... hope u all also learn to live life the way it is... sometimes it just makes u happier... n dun think too much like wad i always do when i'm down... even if u nothing better to do... if u really wanna think, at least think of others, not how sad u r, only makes u sadder. help others n u'll feel more needed, not so left out sometimes.

how's everybody's 1st day of sch??
my class encouraging one another to wake up everyone's bloody idea, not bad. hope will last.

i've got a new visitor here, shall not acknowledge her presence. but bubu lah not bad. haha

i'm mesmorised by Here, There and Everywhere by clay aiken, originally by beatles. rtb

just help denzyl do deferment... wooo ns rox


Friday, July 04, 2003

today sit 3 hrs in cold n uncomfortable position for LEP. rox my turb** (public blog...eh cannot type everyting)

yes! yes! the is the best one! block test over! like o level over... hm.. but time for sch again... rmt... the end of the beginning, the begining of another end. hai... jc life is tt hectic... thanx MOE i love u.

everyone is stressed by block test... guess tt's singapore students.

life is actually nothing, it's like a blank piece of paper i realise. wad really make us human is the emotions set in, like words written on it. sometimes we noe it'll just end up in nothing, but still choose to let the effect of the words to set in. well, if we noe it's the emotions at work, then sometimes we really dun have to put it to heart. if it's happiness, then let the effect sink in lor, if it's worry anxiety sadness, just remember we're humans, it's normal. everything will go to nothing at the end. it won't affect ur long long life. takes a while to digest wad i'm sayin myself. but it's inside my head.. slowly discover it's credibility

steph shared:
"sometimes girls like guy doesn't mean must go steady".
hm... suddenly i c the light. aha! tt's the true essence of let nature take its course. got lobang chiong, no lobang wait, wait also no lobang, go n sleep. yes! enlightenment!

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