路越难走，我越坚强

read many many pple's blogs.... woooohooo guess wad! mugging is never out of the topic!

guess everyone is stressed these few days due to the block test n midyears wadever they call it.
great jump from secondary sch i guess, esp tchs pple who never experience wad u call a midyear. n even to many others, the subject volume is too heavy for us. never been so draining before. just compare sec sch physics n jc physics. wowowowow. a great world of difference.

quite bad living in singapore. it's not tt we wanna complain sometimes, but it seems there's nothing much for us to look forward n to feel happy abt sometimes. study for the sake of wad u call a cert. but just look at the current state of some university students. wart de hal. wad if we end up lidat? all our efforts put to waste? or should i say all our time wasted when we can actually do something more meaningful? well, this is the pessimistic side of the story.

jc life is so packed. academic, cca, social, self time.... blah blah... u name it u have it. ultimately wad do we want out of the 2 years. if u ask me, i also dunno. drowned in the sea of emotions n dreams. find it hard to see the sunlight u noe.

so pathetic. our emotions r controlled by lifeless n intangible things. results! wart de hal. most needed.

well to whoever reading this, chill out we'll all travelling on the same boat. do all u can, do all ur best, remember to give urself some rest alrite?

i gotta chill out too...else the pimples will pop out!

*roar* .... *yawn*.... *zzzZ*

life is short...

dad is experiencing aging, do hope he's coping well. it's not very nice to experience such a big change in ur own life. coping with the suffer which is inevitable. changes are never easy to handle. needs time n endurance. i hope my dad has both.

big sis is marrying. less time to spend with us, she's gonna lead her own life, totally her own already. no more pple to chat with mum so heartily so often liao. no more sis to shout : "boi ah wake up liao!" no more sis to be the more understanding one liao. no more 6 in the family liao.

to those of u out there, do treasure the precious moments u have with ur family. time n tide waits for no man. everyone needs everyones' care n love, esp family, where love flourish. dun wait till time snatches away everything.

man... must wait till things are gone, then he'll release its value.

1230 reach home from chinese society (zhong wen xue hui or ZWXH) anniversary. haha pple must be thinking wad the hell is an ncc cadet doin in such a sissy cca. well, u dunno it till u experience it. it's a totally different xperience. past 4 years u get to work with guys n guys only, now the exco has 8 girls to 2 guys. well cultural shock at 1st, but now at least i get used to working with really different kinds of pple. feels good! haha

well guys sometimes u really dun have to say much u noe wad to do n things lidat, n u noe aga how he feels, but girls more different. certain things u dun say cannot, certain things u say also cannot. so kinda must mind ur words n actions blah blah. really different environment. if really want me to choose one, i can't, cos each got its goodness. it's like physics n chemistry, though somethings intersact, some others don't

really must be a chameleon. not say split personality lah, but must do tok wad with wad kind of pple. quite tiring though somtimes. maybe tt's y u need real frens, frens who noe who u r n y u r.

will never regret joining this organisation. new, fun, cute, petrifying, intruguing n last of all, memorable


She Bangs (ZWXH dance)

Talk to me, Tell me your name
You blow me off like it's all the same
You lit a fuse and now I'm ticking away
Like a bomb Yeah Baby

Talk to me, Tell me your sign
You're switching sides like a Gemini
You're playing games and now you're hittin' my heart
Like a drum Yeah Baby

Well if Lady Luck gets on my side
We're gonna rock this town alive
I'll let her rough me up, Till she knocks me out
She walks like she talks, And she talks like she walks

And she bangs, she bangs
Oh baby
When she moves, she moves
I go crazy
'Cause she looks like a flower but she stings like a bee
Like every girl in history

She bangs, she bangs
I'm wasted by the way she moves
No one ever looked so fine
She reminds me that a woman only got one thing on her mind

Talk to me, Tell me your name
I'm just a link in your daisy chain
Your rap sounds like a diamond
Map to the stars Yeah Baby

Talk to me, Tell me the news
You wear me out like a pair of shoes
We'll dance until the band goes home
Then you're gone Yeah Baby

Well if it looks like love should be a crime
You'd better lock me up for life
I'll do the time with a smile on my face
Thinking of her in her leather and lace

Well if Lady Luck gets on my side
We're gonna rock this town alive
I'll let her rough me up, Till she knocks me out
She walks like she talks, And she talks like she walks

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when u get so used to achieving your goal alone, sometimes u forget abt just being together
when u get used to being together, u forget to go out n fight for ur own dream
life is so ironic

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kk is so zhun lor. he told me in the postcard (remember he had one for everyone) "explain to ur followers wad you are doin" kaoz.. tt's one serious problem i face in working with pple. will learn.

holidays comes... turban.... holidays not like holidays....so many programmes going on. and thanx to SARS we have 1 week less of holidays, oudou we had one week half for SARS but thanx lah really got prepare.


FIRST LOVE
saigo no kisu wa
tabako no flavor gana shita
nigakute setsunai kaori

ashita no imagoro ni wa
anata no doko ni iru n darou
dare o omotteru n darou

You are always gonna be the one
itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

tachidomaru jikan ga
ugokidasou to shiteru
wasuletakunai koto bakari

ashita no imagoro ni wa
watashiwa kitto naiteru
anata o ometteru n darou

You will always be inside my heart
itsumo anata dako no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
ima wa mada kanashii love songu
antashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
mada kanashii love song
Now and forever....


i pok liao but still must JTS... thanx to all my seniors. fancy having someone telling you "you're supposed to treat me". wow, wad a treat. stupid tradition. just becos they suffered last year they want revenge....on another group of pple. we r the ke lian (kelient) ones. turban.

aha, i have a bad habit of being late. habits are really had to change. aaargh! so pple, while reading this, pls realise it's 1.15pm and i'm supposed to meet u all at 1pm. welcome =P

happiness..... have been so distant for so long

past 2 days was so much happiness..... really dun wan this feeling to go away..... buthen hai..... bed time soon n everything will be gone

if only i can play catching with this kind of feeling, i'll make sure i catch it.... muahahaha

it's really pen n ink cannot describe... not even this bloody CPU n keyboard

frens...frens.... and lot of old frens n buddies.... they're my SOH!!! it's good to know pple zai hu ni.

the wind is chilly so that you feel the warmth in the sun
the night sky is dark so that the moon shines
the leaves are dull so that the roses blossom with radiance
the pain is excruciating so that it's lifely to feel well

the sadness is disheartening so that the happiness is treasured
the boredom persists so that the excitement is noticed
the absence makes u feel isolated so that the presence brings you warmth

if u feel the world is terrible, cheer up, cos it's just the preparation of beautiful moments

I flipped thru the year books. 1999 - 2002. haha... everyone has grown up.

sec1 everyone looks so blur and toot. socks high high. haha.
sec2 was better but still room for improvement
sec3 aaah. the big change comes. everyone starts to act cool and hip n funky.
sec4. the last time we capture ourselves in the fotos

such a big change. from childish little boys to who we are today.

still remember the times when time was really much our luxury. homework yes, but who the hell cares. we weren't very sure who we r n wad we wanna grow up to be. sec1 especially. spend the whole of the day out with frens. go kap lah go here go there. carefree is the word u use to describe us

then sec2 LAN is our world. homework still yes, but then again who the hell cares. we bullied teachers, disturbed their classes, but everyone basically had fun.

sec3 comes the big change. suddenly we found ourselves stuck with responsibilities n work n frens. at least tt's for me. yah. NCC comes responsibilities. lots n lots when u r so new to bearing such task. n along came frens. frens i will never forget. frens who brighten my life. transisition i guess. everytime pple go thru transistion, there's changes to adapt to.

yap n sec4 is the year when no one else is elder than u n u can act big. haha. act big with all our level frens. NCC platoonmates: remember? i guess all of us miss the days. sec4 is really pressure cos of the ominous 'O' levels which determine the next step of our future. but every afternoon is spent not to study but to go out with everyone else. everyday comes the call

"eh, ni3 zai4 na3 li3?"
or
"oi qu4 chi1!"
or
"zou3 qu4 coro!"

haha. remedial or xtra lessons. no prob man. we can really wait the whole day just to go out makan. tt's our way of relieving stress. even the all mighty EASTER dun mind goin home late. haha

and comes to activity. nothing can stop us. go home at 10 also can. got soccer got bball, who the hell cares. tired? we only noe wad's tired when it comes to work. n then comes the hailing

"oi late liao, kuai4 dian3 qu4 chi1"

hq is our fav hang out, tho we dun really take care of it. haha we'll never have another chance to be so carefree like before.

gone r the days when we can accompany each other everyday, go out every week, dump ourselves at orchard road to stare at girls

(toking abt orchard road, the 3K gang, i still remember abt chemical bondings n how much we wish we were bonded to something we really want.)

growing up everyone has to grow up. no one can stay where there want to stay. tt's the trouble of life. suddenly it strikes me: what is my role in this world i belong? 4 years of studentship in an institute so special so grand, i've changed n i've learnt. ultimately i can't stay there. so wad to do when i step into society? apply wad i learnt so far? wad have i really learnt? i really dunno.

yah i have to let go of the past. but one thing for sure, it's gonna leave a deep memory in me. while pple may fear goin to a single sex sch may be of a trouble to their social life n such stuff, one choice i never ever will regret making, is that i chose to enter THE CHINESE HIGH SCHOOL. it's where my "good frens" come from. it's where the "wah thanks" and "no need" and "as in" come from. a place where everyone else is everyone else's fren, so long as u seen each other before. where else can i find such a place?

but then again hao3 jing3 bu4 chang2 zai4; ren2 you3 bei1 huan1 li2 he2. no one can stay together forever.

with separation comes new life, new routes, new challenges, new hopes, new aspirations, new frens, new thinking, new perspectives of old things. it's another transistion. another phase to adapt to. another hardship to go thru.

hope everyone is doin fine.

i miss the times.

frens, homework, family, organising programmes...... dun even have time for myself. the more the things, the more the depression.

Depression = (things to do)^2.

do all teenagers face this? this is terrible. totally no energy, no reason to feel happy. i'm experiencing one of the downest moment of my life. 1 week away from holidays. 5 days more to endure. i can't go on anymore. i probably will shut down this whole week. aaaaaaaaaaaaargh. if only i can be Bruce Almighty, then good(can make skirts fly... aha!).

i think i think too much....

ehe... this blogger thing is rather fun ah!